My Next Bold Move.

Dear LiveJournal,
Thank you for being a place for me to rant and post quizzes for the last four and a half years. I'm afraid our relationship must end, I've moved on to bigger and better things.

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do you have a staring problem?

Today's word of the day is PLATONIC. Let's scream every time we hear it.

And today is the first day in a long time I've felt like this, and I hate it. Hopefully doing some homework will help subside my jealously.

I grew a pair, grew up.
And as usual, it got me nowhere.

Hell. I might as well never said anything.

your next bold move
the next thing you're gonna need to prove
to yourself

I asked a boy named Jacob to go find his friend Kaden and hang out.
Jacob's response, "No! I hate Kaden! He masculated on my bed yesterday!"

Holy crap I'm ready to go back to school.

Did I ever tell you that when you walk into a room time stops?
It's starting to become a problem.
I'm late for class,
I missed three phone calls
and yesterday, I forgot to get my sixth (or seventh?) cup of coffee.

You just pop up out of nowhere and Wham! My watch stops.
It's stuck at 3:23:56 for at least another hour.
Everyone else's watches keep barreling on to
3:23:57, 3:23:58, 3:23:59, 3:24:00.
My just stops.
Time has died.
Gone kaput.
You understand.

I'm not telling you this because I want you to stop making time come to a halt.

I'd just appreciate it if you maybe gave me a warning or better yet
just bring me a cup of coffee, two creams, no sugar.

I had someone ask me today if teaching kids how to make movies was actually beneficial to my future. It made me feel like shit.

I also had a realization that no matter how much you dream nothing will happen unless you do something and I'm too stubborn to do something because the other party didn't act first.

My stubbornness has made me lose friends, lose jobs, lose love.

stubborn (adj)
having or showing dogged determination not to change one's attitude or position on something, esp. in spite of good arguments or reasons


And now I need to stop writing.

My boss Jody asked me to chaperone the Senior camper trip which was way cooler than bowling.

I got to go to the Portland Museum of Art, See The Dark Knight, and get free dinner at Panera.

Overall it was a pretty righteous day.

Today I am going Candlepin Bowling with the kiddies. Um I guess its cool to bowl differently than the rest of America when you're in New England.

I got new kids today. They don't speak English.

But on the brighter side I am teaching a class with Eric!

And apparently we have new name, it's "Leric".

I am in film studio. Waiting for the Lobster Banquet to start. My campers leave today. I might cry a lot. I found out my time off for the next four weeks and I have the same off time schedule as Eric so it will be fun. We can have more adventures to Portland and Wal-Mart at midnight. I get to move into a new cabin. It's called Utopia. It's uber nice.

Camp is going by so fast.

My campers told me to go on Match.com to find a boyfriend.

I spent the last 2 hours going through my live journal/ watching Project Runway with Eric.

And I noticed that I was fucking crazy freshman year. I mean I still am but seriously, whoa. And its crazy to see how much has changed. Like me talking about Ria and Megan. Weird. Weird. Weird.

Good morning starshine
You lead us along
My love and me as we sing
Our early morning singing song

Gliddy glub gloopy
Nibby nabby noopy
La la la lo lo
Sabba sibby sabba
Nooby abba nabba
Le le lo lo
Tooby ooby walla
Nooby abba naba
Early morning singing song

The Hair Soundtrack is just too freaking good.

I went roller skating and I was Xanaduing (Woot! New Word!) it up on the floor I fell straight down on my left knee. It hurts. A lot. The end.


"A place where nobody dared to go
The love that we came to know
They call it Xanadu"

These kids think they are fucking cinematic geniuses.
And the truth is... they are.


I'm fucking screwed.

Today was an interesting day. My friend Eric and I got to skip out on classes and lunch today and go shopping. We started off our shopping adventure at a place called Alli Cat Consignment, then off to the local Salvo, and finally ending at Goodwill. What were we in search of? Women's shoes that were at least a size 10 and dresses to fit 6 foot tall men. Eric and I were quite successful in finding some very lovely outfits, A bedazzled Cosby Sweater, A Salmon Colored Muu-muu, and finally a Purple Crushed Velvet dress with white cap sleeves and a big white bow on the back. It was glorious. We weren't successful in the large shoe hunt, But that is our quest for tomorrow.

You might be wondering what all these delightful sounding clothes are for. It's for the Camp Beauty Pageant called "Miss Med-O-Lark". Each cabin get assigned one male counselor to make over and dress up and then there is a themed Beauty Pageant. This year's theme is a Western Theme and the guys are working on a dance to "Man, I Feel Like A Woman" and It will be amazing. My friend Eric can Rope Spin so he'll be doing some rope spinning tricks in drag, it's going to be AMAZING.

Oh and I get to dress up like a boy and escort the guy counselor to the pageant. So I was thinking about dressing up like a cowboy. It might have to happen. Or a lumberjack. Either way I am buying a fake beard tomorrow.

Tomorrow is extra large shoe and wig shopping day.

I was on your porch, the smoke sank into my skin so i came inside to be with you and we talked all night, about everything
We could imagine cause come the morning ill be gone and as our eyes start to close i turn to you and i let you know that i
Love you well my dad was sick and my mom she cared for him her love it nursed him back to life and me i ran, i couldnt even
Look at him for fear id have to say goodbye and as i start to leave he grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me whats left
To lose, youve done enough and if you fail well then you fail but not to us cause these last three years, i know theyve been
Hard but now its time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone so now here i sit, in a hotel off of
Sunset my thoughts bounce off of sams guitar and thats the way its been, ever since we were kids but now, now weve got
Something to prove and i, i can see there eyes but tell me something, can they see mine cause whats left to lose, ive done
Enough and if i fail well then i fail but i gave it a shot and these last three years, i know theyve been hard but now its
Time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone i was on your porch last nite, the smoke it sank into my
Skin