My Next Bold Move.

the end.

2008-12-01T20:13:43Z

Dear LiveJournal,
Thank you for being a place for me to rant and post quizzes for the last four and a half years. I'm afraid our relationship must end, I've moved on to bigger and better things.

http://lemibeal.blogspot.com/

i only write in this when i am mad.

2008-10-31T04:01:14Z

do you have a staring problem?

ellbeetree @ 2008-09-06T08:04:00

2008-09-06T12:05:24Z

Today's word of the day is PLATONIC. Let's scream every time we hear it.

Sometimes people tell you things you'd rather not hear.

2008-09-01T16:07:48Z

And today is the first day in a long time I've felt like this, and I hate it. Hopefully doing some homework will help subside my jealously.

ellbeetree @ 2008-08-18T19:31:00

2008-08-18T23:51:07Z

I grew a pair, grew up.
And as usual, it got me nowhere.

Hell. I might as well never said anything.

i did it.

2008-08-18T13:19:29Z

your next bold move
the next thing you're gonna need to prove
to yourself

Kids Say the Darndest Things

2008-08-11T21:45:54Z

I asked a boy named Jacob to go find his friend Kaden and hang out.
Jacob's response, "No! I hate Kaden! He masculated on my bed yesterday!"

Holy crap I'm ready to go back to school.

Two Creams, No Sugar

2008-08-06T15:37:59Z

Did I ever tell you that when you walk into a room time stops?
It's starting to become a problem.
I'm late for class,
I missed three phone calls
and yesterday, I forgot to get my sixth (or seventh?) cup of coffee.

You just pop up out of nowhere and Wham! My watch stops.
It's stuck at 3:23:56 for at least another hour.
Everyone else's watches keep barreling on to
3:23:57, 3:23:58, 3:23:59, 3:24:00.
My just stops.
Time has died.
Gone kaput.
You understand.

I'm not telling you this because I want you to stop making time come to a halt.

I'd just appreciate it if you maybe gave me a warning or better yet
just bring me a cup of coffee, two creams, no sugar.

sigh

2008-08-05T23:18:43Z

I had someone ask me today if teaching kids how to make movies was actually beneficial to my future. It made me feel like shit.

I also had a realization that no matter how much you dream nothing will happen unless you do something and I'm too stubborn to do something because the other party didn't act first.

My stubbornness has made me lose friends, lose jobs, lose love.

stubborn (adj)
having or showing dogged determination not to change one's attitude or position on something, esp. in spite of good arguments or reasons

And now I need to stop writing.

So I Didn't Go Bowling Afterall...

2008-08-01T03:53:10Z

My boss Jody asked me to chaperone the Senior camper trip which was way cooler than bowling.

I got to go to the Portland Museum of Art, See The Dark Knight, and get free dinner at Panera.

Overall it was a pretty righteous day.

Candlepin Bowling

2008-07-31T14:08:05Z

Today I am going Candlepin Bowling with the kiddies. Um I guess its cool to bowl differently than the rest of America when you're in New England.

Me No Speako el Spanisho

2008-07-26T00:13:12Z

I got new kids today. They don't speak English.

But on the brighter side I am teaching a class with Eric!

And apparently we have new name, it's "Leric".

Oh My Gawd Becky.

2008-07-22T21:45:56Z

I am in film studio. Waiting for the Lobster Banquet to start. My campers leave today. I might cry a lot. I found out my time off for the next four weeks and I have the same off time schedule as Eric so it will be fun. We can have more adventures to Portland and Wal-Mart at midnight. I get to move into a new cabin. It's called Utopia. It's uber nice.

Camp is going by so fast.

Fucking A

2008-07-22T13:55:05Z

My campers told me to go on Match.com to find a boyfriend.

Late Nights in the Film Studio

2008-07-20T04:57:20Z

I spent the last 2 hours going through my live journal/ watching Project Runway with Eric.

And I noticed that I was fucking crazy freshman year. I mean I still am but seriously, whoa. And its crazy to see how much has changed. Like me talking about Ria and Megan. Weird. Weird. Weird.

Hair Hair Hair Hair Hair

2008-07-19T20:16:32Z

Good morning starshine
You lead us along
My love and me as we sing
Our early morning singing song

Gliddy glub gloopy
Nibby nabby noopy
La la la lo lo
Sabba sibby sabba
Nooby abba nabba
Le le lo lo
Tooby ooby walla
Nooby abba naba
Early morning singing song

The Hair Soundtrack is just too freaking good.

My Leg!

2008-07-18T14:02:06Z

I went roller skating and I was Xanaduing (Woot! New Word!) it up on the floor I fell straight down on my left knee. It hurts. A lot. The end.

"A place where nobody dared to go
The love that we came to know
They call it Xanadu"

Crud

2008-07-16T20:14:34Z

These kids think they are fucking cinematic geniuses.
And the truth is... they are.

I'm fucking screwed.

ellbeetree @ 2008-07-12T17:23:00

2008-07-12T21:51:14Z

Today was an interesting day. My friend Eric and I got to skip out on classes and lunch today and go shopping. We started off our shopping adventure at a place called Alli Cat Consignment, then off to the local Salvo, and finally ending at Goodwill. What were we in search of? Women's shoes that were at least a size 10 and dresses to fit 6 foot tall men. Eric and I were quite successful in finding some very lovely outfits, A bedazzled Cosby Sweater, A Salmon Colored Muu-muu, and finally a Purple Crushed Velvet dress with white cap sleeves and a big white bow on the back. It was glorious. We weren't successful in the large shoe hunt, But that is our quest for tomorrow.

You might be wondering what all these delightful sounding clothes are for. It's for the Camp Beauty Pageant called "Miss Med-O-Lark". Each cabin get assigned one male counselor to make over and dress up and then there is a themed Beauty Pageant. This year's theme is a Western Theme and the guys are working on a dance to "Man, I Feel Like A Woman" and It will be amazing. My friend Eric can Rope Spin so he'll be doing some rope spinning tricks in drag, it's going to be AMAZING.

Oh and I get to dress up like a boy and escort the guy counselor to the pageant. So I was thinking about dressing up like a cowboy. It might have to happen. Or a lumberjack. Either way I am buying a fake beard tomorrow.

Tomorrow is extra large shoe and wig shopping day.

I've been listening to this song, a lot.

2008-07-09T16:04:43Z

I was on your porch, the smoke sank into my skin so i came inside to be with you and we talked all night, about everything
We could imagine cause come the morning ill be gone and as our eyes start to close i turn to you and i let you know that i
Love you well my dad was sick and my mom she cared for him her love it nursed him back to life and me i ran, i couldnt even
Look at him for fear id have to say goodbye and as i start to leave he grabs me by the shoulder and he tells me whats left
To lose, youve done enough and if you fail well then you fail but not to us cause these last three years, i know theyve been
Hard but now its time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone so now here i sit, in a hotel off of
Sunset my thoughts bounce off of sams guitar and thats the way its been, ever since we were kids but now, now weve got
Something to prove and i, i can see there eyes but tell me something, can they see mine cause whats left to lose, ive done
Enough and if i fail well then i fail but i gave it a shot and these last three years, i know theyve been hard but now its
Time to get out of the desert and into the sun even if its alone i was on your porch last nite, the smoke it sank into my
Skin

Pollocked!

2008-07-05T15:41:46Z

I'm in my film class right now. The children are merrily editing their movies that range from borderline creepy documentaries, damsel in distress narratives, and one very nasty cooking show. Last night for the 4th of July it was "Paint Your Counselor Night". Basically, I stood there while my campers threw red, white and blue paint on me. Then we had a runway show showing off our campers excellent creations. I got to do a wicked Cher impersonation, and finally the night ended with the counselors performing a firework spectacular (aka jumping in the lake)

And about 7:00 last night while I was debating whether Chuck or Nate was hotter with my 13 year old campers, I realized that this is my job and I get payed to talk about Gossip Girl and get attacked with paint.

FYI, Chuck Bass is so much hotter than Nate Archibald.

mis pantalones un fuego... literally.

2008-06-29T21:43:11Z

Ok. I am up here in Washington, Maine at Camp Med-O-Lark and last night we had our opening campfire. This camp is awesome and has the counselors blow fire to start the campfire and circus performers to juggle these torch things.
So I was sitting on the ground filming things and the juggler guy comes over by my campers and I... and what happens next.. he drops the flaming torch on me! I didn't light on fire. But I was filming when it happened so there is a very awkward video of me filming fire hitting the ground and little girls screaming. I was fine. I didn't scream. I am fearless.
We told the kids I was part of the circus act.. and that I was supposed to almost burn.
The rest of the campfire was totally awesome. We sang Brown Eyed Girl, Rocky Raccoon, and a variety of fun Repeat after Me Songs.

Today was my first day of teaching video. It was crazy exhausting. I got to paint a blue screen though and I have helped make 5 short videos with the kids with the blue screen in the last 3 days.

So far everything has been really good here. I get every other night off, one hour a day off, and every Sunday off.. There is wireless internet, and I get to go on fun field trips!

This camp has so much cool stuff. We have a trapeze, recording studio, a water trampoline, an inflatable iceberg, horses, chipwiches, and lots of other stuff. This camp is crazy awesome.

Well camp is good, but I miss the Cord a lot too..

ellbeetree @ 2008-06-21T08:55:00

2008-06-21T12:56:03Z

Yesterday a child came out to wonder
Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star
Then the child moved ten times round the seasons
Skated over ten clear frozen streams
Words like, when youre older, must appease him
And promises of someday make his dreams
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and dawn
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return we con only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game.

Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
Cartwheels turn to car wheels thru the town
And they tell him,
Take your time, it wont be long now
Till you drag your feet to slow the circles down
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and dawn
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
Though his dreams have lost some grandeur
Coming true
Therell be new dreams, maybe better dreams and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through.
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
Were captive on the carousel of time
We cant return, we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

ellbeetree @ 2008-05-20T14:56:00

2008-05-20T19:07:14Z

After one week in Pennsylvania I realized that if I stayed another minute I might go do something drastic, like take a picture of an Amish person, so I left. I asked my Grandma if I could stay with her for a week and help her around the house. It has been good so far. Better than I expected. I hated this town, but as soon as I fell back in to the the fucked up little world here I fell back in love with it. I hung out with people I haven't seen since high school and forgot how fucking funny they are.

So me and Monroe are friends again. The End.

Phish is the only music that gets me through papers.

2007-12-06T03:46:27Z

Police in a corner, gunnin' for you
Appletoast, bedheated, furblanket rat
Laugh when they shoot you, say
"Please don't do that"

Control for smilers can't be bought
The solar garlic starts to rot
Was it for this my life I sought?
Maybe so and maybe not